- canon, kokuyo trio, mukuro possessing ken, slowly fucking chikusa and getting him to beg while making ken watch and driving him up the wall
- canon, kokuyo trio, mukuro possessing both of them at once to fuck each other, finish up with non-possessed double blowjob...
- canon, kokuyo trio, ken knotting chikusa, mukuro fucking him slowly while he's stuck
- god au, shoichi and god visions and he didn't ask for this (i might have reread a little hemostuck and it got me in a mood)
- canon, byakuran keeps trying to make shoichi his Proper sun guardian but it keeps backfiring, decides it might be more interesting to see him as an enemy instead
> HAIKYUU FIC what is this, au, prince tsukki and poor yams as part of the royal harem (based off of a meme thread I'm pretty sure the other party is never getting back to)
- canon, chikusa in cop uniform pinning a handcuffed mukuro facefirst against a wall and fucking happens
- au, mystery dj chikusa trying to flirt with possible dancer mukuro via music, twin shoichi
- band au, bitter bitter bassist chikusa dealing with guitarist chrome
- hq, martini spy/super villain au, kuroo/tsukki because I've been listening to miike snow's genghis khan too damn much
canon: - servants gossiping about why the hell dimitri is having such large breakfasts, featuring: excuses from the lions - almyrans' impressions of lions during fighting tournament - sylvain/raphael, sylvain tutoring him and the resulting crush - raphvain, raphael asking the deer for help with a gift with his boyfriend - mercedes dealing with feral dimitri and healing his lack of eye - claudvain giving handjobs while dimilix soft and slow fuck - felix in thigh highs and a shirt and nothing else, domming his boyfriends - dom claude, relaxes felix, tells dimitri to stand at ready and makes sylvain stand close breathing him in, lines up felix-sylvain-dimitri fuck line - the letters felix and rodrigue wrote to one another in canon
au???: - marianne's old friends senior wyvern sanctuary - dom dimitri, claude pays for him, eventually runs into him in the cheese aisle, just excuse for kink -- SYLVAIN <3< HUBERT IN THIS SAME AU, chess is an excuse for active vibe use, sylvain still wins - FIRE EMBLEMS PLAY DND, THREE GROUPS CONVERGING INTO ONE - incubus dimitri: I'm your government assigned demon, and in order for me to survive, I need to feed off of your sexual energy and give you my ejaculate iF YOU DON'T WANT TO I UNDERSTAND GOOD BYE - GRINDR FIELD - the assassin game, everyone is a shitshow, mercedes is ruthless, bernie is paranoid, dimitri is crying, sylvain keeps cockblocking hubert's assassination attempts while felix tries to happily murder him, a lot is going on here
V3: - rodrigue didn't mean to accidentally/informally adopt all these children and yet - everyone uses the "no more fucks" song as a coping method - babby dedue and dimitri's first meeting, including dimitri just fucking up some dudes and meeting dedue's aunts - marianne and dimitri become roommates, adopt a cat, lay on adoption floor crying a lot about cats - dimitri and edelgard's dumb skype call where everyone gets in the way - dimitri asks hilda's help for making a sexy halloween costume, edelgard gets roped in somehow, charity work???? - REN FAIR, VIKING DIMITRI, LETS GO - karaoke, everyone gets to suffer from sylvix bullshit - claude has a bad day at work, dimitri has a bow on his dick - jeralt deals with his kids and gender, babby's first pride - Trope: Buying The Saddest Looking Christmas Tree, Kink: Pampering - felix's journey with music, drifts away from glenn's favorites, bonds with dimitri over rock, vocaloids are pretty dope since the idol industry is corrupt - sylvain, claude, and dimitri talk about dimitri's knowledge of porn. including dimitri accidentally having stumbled upon sylvain's yaoi once - Dimideer Apt gets used to living with each other. Three deer stuffed into a bathroom. Dimitri's terrible eating habits. u kno - a young mercedes adjusting to that poly life, fusses over it a little before getting advice from Actual God, Maybe (probably not. maybe.)
pokemon au: - give edelgard yveltal - dimitri: luxray, nidoking, espeon, cubone, LAPRAS IS NECESSARY, cosmog is a blaiddyd thing that proves them worthy - shuppets follow him around when he's feral - greenhouse oddish just follow dedue around So Much - dedue has matching sylveon, absol saved his life, shieldon from home - ashe has a furret and a ralts - mercedes with a blissey and then also every ghost type ever - sylvain has a zoroark and an arcanine. what else does he have? WHO THE FUCK KNOWS, THE ZOROARK PRETENDS TO BE DIFFERENT POKEMON AND HE ROTATES HIS TEAM - GOD FUCKING DAMMIT SYLVAIN GAUTIER - felix has a bisharp, obviously, and a doublade (it evolves after character development) and a skarmory - sylvain used to have a gautier rapidash. it's ingrid's now. - hilda has clefairy and bewear. Surprise! - byleth has zygarde and don't you question it - all the cells are concentrated around the monastery for some reason???
As far as writing a thing on schizophrenia, i see you arent getting too many questions on it so I'll try and give you some i have been asked. One thing i wish i had known was that how incredibly rare it is for someone to be paranoid schizophrenic. Whenever i heard "schizophrenic" I'd picture that horor movie trope with the crazy girl and the knfie shouting at things that wernt there trying to kill you. Its such a prevelant stigma i thought i was weird for not being like that! Much relieved to find out the contrary. I think the most common question i get is "what is it like" and i find that really had to describe to people who have never had an out of body experence or lucid dream.
One thing i had to learn the hard way was that veryone experences their psychoses in dramatically different ways, and just hearing stuff from one person doesnt mean you know all there is to it. Having examples of different reactions or symptoms could be helpful (and creativly challenging).
Oh as for Schizophrenia, I've studied bits about it in my psychology classes, however I'd love to know more about day to day life and coping mechanisms, as well as any misconceptions. Especially since most of my syllabus focused mostly on symptoms and traditional treatments and not the day to day life of living with schizophrenia. Also how to remember how to spell it
I don’t have any questions myself but I really appreciate the no-judgement no-shaming space to ask mental health questions. That’s a very good way of educating people, inviting them into the activism of just being an understanding and open person in your life, and making the world better, and I salute you for it!
I don't want to bore you with the details, but as someone who comes from a family where severe mental illness is a norm (and as someone who works in the mental health field), such representation literally made my heart leap with joy. [...] This is exactly the sort of content that is needed to help minimize stigma and show that a diagnosis does not define who you are or what you can do.
It's obviously not the same as schizophrenia, but I'm on the autistic spectrum, so I'm always glad to see some form of mental health awareness in fan media.
Loved the conversation between Claude and Dimitri about Dimitri's schizophrenia, too, and I love that it's kind of a normalized thing here and not treated as a Big Scary Thing. It's a mental illness that he's treating, part of his life but not the all-encompassing thing.
I also have a good friend with schizophrenia who has gotten way too much shit about it, so in addition to thanking you for writing a so-far-wonderful fic— thank you, thank you, thank you for helping more of the world get over their bad impressions. I have a whole selection of true funny stories I tell for the same purpose, and it just means the world to me that other people are working towards the same goal.
I think the choice to have Dimitri live with Schizophrenia was a really great choice precisely because it's not something that defines him in the story! I'm in medical school currently and I'm actually heavily considering psychiatry for my specialty. I can't say how much I love that you made it a part of his character but not his whole character. His confession to Claude hit me square in the chest with how real and vulnerable it felt.
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I certainly found it refreshing to see the day-to-day aspect of schizophrenia. Most of my experience in school centers around crisis management in an inpatient setting. So, I'm usually exposed to patients when things go wrong and they are at their lowest point. I only got any outpatient experience by going off on my own time. Seeing your friend's insights on living with schizophrenia in the notes and the text of the fic have been very enlightening for me in that regard.
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If you wouldn't mind, I'd love to take a look at it. Most of my medical training focuses on the diagnosis, disease progression, and medications. Our training on preparing people for the day-to-day of the disease is, unfortunately, mostly reserved for residents only. So unfortunately, I'm not quite at that level yet. But the saying goes in medicine, "It's better to know the person with the disease than the disease the person has," so any personal life experiences your friend has would be a real treat to learn from.
Frankly, I find with life-long diagnoses, it's nice to have some grasp of what patients have to deal with (the day to day bs). I have some experience personally with the lovely chestnut of anxiety/depression, and it really has helped me with tempering expectations of both patients and their families. There's so many small mental habits that I still have from that (my first diagnosis instinct being something far deadlier than is usually the case. It was very helpful in the ER.) I can't imagine how isolating it could be to just not realize what day-to-day life looks like for its disease. Frankly, I'm glad mental health has become a more everyday topic compared to even five years ago. Hopefully, we can get there with other mental health disorders soon. I'd like patients to not feel like pariahs due to their diagnosis.
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It's nice to see things I've seen patients experiencing but they couldn't put into words well explained in the document. Thank you so so much!
(james note: gaps were mostly just me referencing things you'd told me, and then linking your gdoc)
•Do you ever feel ashamed of what your other selves think and do? •Does your sexual preferences change? •What is your greatest frustration? •How do the people around you respond to your condition? •If there was a single cure-all, would you take it? Even if it would fundamentally change you as a person? •Do you have a «main» personality, or do they all feel interchangeable? •Whats your favorite color? Does the answer change?
I have a friend/acquaintance (complicated bc we used to be friends when we were classmates, but now she lives really far away - another continent far away - and we don't call or text often) who has schizophrenia. I've always had a lot of questions, but hesitated to put them to words enough that it... Might take me some time to articulate them properly. Here's two for now, though, and sorry in advance if they feel offensive :BlobFearSweat:
1) does shifting between personalities ever change the way you view people? Family and friends?
2) when it comes to potential new romantic/sexual/qp relationships, how do you view the person that you're... Courting, for lack of a better word. Does schizophrenia make it harder to pursue new relationships? Even platonic ones? And a third, bc this is imp.
3) How would a friend/family member being concerned about the individual with schizophrenia be viewed? What's a good way to show concern - without coming across as patronizing or offensive?
Ah! But if I may add any: what are common misconceptions that people associate to schizophrenia? Not sure if that's helpful but is the only I thought of right off the bat
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- Is the Vongola a cult / Are there cults
Fics
To Do List
- BDSM club AU, Luce teaching Hana about kink things
- BDSM club AU, Lal awkwardly taking up as a domme, Fon falling flat on his face for her
- canon, Adel taking romance advice from Shittoppi-chan on how to woo Haru that involves eggplant costumes
- canon, teen xanxus and scared child tsuna and sir-appearing-in-this-film frederico
- canon, Mammon name fic
- canon, Tsuna and Kyoko and kids and kidnapping
- soulmate AU, Tsuna, poly, and colors
- canon, Tsuna and Nana having a meal together before he goes to Italy
- canon, dera tied up in lingerie, tsuna ordering moto on how to touch him
- canon, Adel and Haru and fighting Hibari over sperm
- canon, power mafia couple Tsuna and Kyoko domming the hell out of nicely dressed Xanxus, hidden vibes
- harem AU, Tsuna and poly hell, but I feel like that'll be just as much of a multichapter monster as anything else, so
- canon, kokuyo domestic dispute
- canon, Mammon/Reborn pegging fic
- canon, Tsuna lapdance for Dera, lead to riding him, end bath with kyoko
- canon, Chikusa introspection, experiments and poisons
- demon AU, Mammon and Reborn clusterfuck
- demon AU, Adel and Haru
- KUROSHITSUJI, holy shit a non KHR, switch AU with demon!Joker and Lady Beast
- Fantasy AU, fae K-Gang and Princess Chrome. (note to self so I don't forget this detail: ice fae Chikusa, his heart of fire in a glass)
- Fantasy AU, dragons Xanxus and Tsuna, Princess Kyoko
- Fantasy AU, knight Adel and Princess Haru
- Soulmate AU, Dino's life is suffering because his soulmates don't make it easy, combine with adel/haru/hibari
- canon, MM's social uses for the rest of k-gang, "they make strap ons chrome", kokuyo/vongola dates and it's a disaster
- bdsm au, dom tsuna introducing moto to being a sub with sub dera to help
- canon, takeshi and tsuna student-teacher roleplay
- canon, chikusa asking MM on the fine art of golddigging
- canon, Aoba and his respect of ladies because I'm making myself tear up about headcanons
> idol au, kokuyo fuckery
> canon, shittoppi and adelheid talking about shittoppi's meditation (helps with shimon carnage trauma)
- canon, tsuna ptsd and learning to deal with arco help
- canon, probably, byashospan hell, sho is mildly an exhibitionist and his jerk boyfriends compare notes
- canon, kokuyo shitshow trio, possession sex
- monster au, just shameless shobya porn with sphinx junk, don't judge me
- canon????, shoibya petplay because fucking Do Do Do S-Kyuu Kareshi has me in the mood
- canon, kokuyo trio, mukuro possessing chikusa, edging ken aaand creampies
- canon, kokuyo trio, mukuro possessing ken, slowly fucking chikusa and getting him to beg while making ken watch and driving him up the wall
- canon, kokuyo trio, mukuro possessing both of them at once to fuck each other, finish up with non-possessed double blowjob...
- canon, kokuyo trio, ken knotting chikusa, mukuro fucking him slowly while he's stuck
- god au, shoichi and god visions and he didn't ask for this (i might have reread a little hemostuck and it got me in a mood)
- canon, byakuran keeps trying to make shoichi his Proper sun guardian but it keeps backfiring, decides it might be more interesting to see him as an enemy instead
> HAIKYUU FIC what is this, au, prince tsukki and poor yams as part of the royal harem (based off of a meme thread I'm pretty sure the other party is never getting back to)
- canon, chikusa in cop uniform pinning a handcuffed mukuro facefirst against a wall and fucking happens
- au, mystery dj chikusa trying to flirt with possible dancer mukuro via music, twin shoichi
- band au, bitter bitter bassist chikusa dealing with guitarist chrome
- hq, martini spy/super villain au, kuroo/tsukki because I've been listening to miike snow's genghis khan too damn much
- canon, kyoko learns kickboxing from lussuria
Finished
- God AU, Chrome's creation of the underworld and Mukuro
- canon, Tsuna and Chrome freaking out older mafiosos their first proper appearance as the tenth gen
canon, Reborn/Mammon and abortion introspection
- canon, Nana and Chikusa cooking lesson
soulmate AU, Hibari-Adel-Haru clusterfuck
fe3h
- servants gossiping about why the hell dimitri is having such large breakfasts, featuring: excuses from the lions
- almyrans' impressions of lions during fighting tournament
- sylvain/raphael, sylvain tutoring him and the resulting crush
- raphvain, raphael asking the deer for help with a gift with his boyfriend
- mercedes dealing with feral dimitri and healing his lack of eye
- claudvain giving handjobs while dimilix soft and slow fuck
- felix in thigh highs and a shirt and nothing else, domming his boyfriends
- dom claude, relaxes felix, tells dimitri to stand at ready and makes sylvain stand close breathing him in, lines up felix-sylvain-dimitri fuck line
- the letters felix and rodrigue wrote to one another in canon
au???:
- marianne's old friends senior wyvern sanctuary
- dom dimitri, claude pays for him, eventually runs into him in the cheese aisle, just excuse for kink
-- SYLVAIN <3< HUBERT IN THIS SAME AU, chess is an excuse for active vibe use, sylvain still wins
- FIRE EMBLEMS PLAY DND, THREE GROUPS CONVERGING INTO ONE
- incubus dimitri: I'm your government assigned demon, and in order for me to survive, I need to feed off of your sexual energy and give you my ejaculate iF YOU DON'T WANT TO I UNDERSTAND GOOD BYE
- GRINDR FIELD
- the assassin game, everyone is a shitshow, mercedes is ruthless, bernie is paranoid, dimitri is crying, sylvain keeps cockblocking hubert's assassination attempts while felix tries to happily murder him, a lot is going on here
V3:
- rodrigue didn't mean to accidentally/informally adopt all these children and yet
- everyone uses the "no more fucks" song as a coping method
- babby dedue and dimitri's first meeting, including dimitri just fucking up some dudes and meeting dedue's aunts
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marianne and dimitri become roommates, adopt a cat, lay on adoption floor crying a lot about cats- dimitri and edelgard's dumb skype call where everyone gets in the way
- dimitri asks hilda's help for making a sexy halloween costume, edelgard gets roped in somehow, charity work????
- REN FAIR, VIKING DIMITRI, LETS GO
- karaoke, everyone gets to suffer from sylvix bullshit
- claude has a bad day at work, dimitri has a bow on his dick- jeralt deals with his kids and gender, babby's first pride
- Trope: Buying The Saddest Looking Christmas Tree, Kink: Pampering
- felix's journey with music, drifts away from glenn's favorites, bonds with dimitri over rock, vocaloids are pretty dope since the idol industry is corrupt
- sylvain, claude, and dimitri talk about dimitri's knowledge of porn. including dimitri accidentally having stumbled upon sylvain's yaoi once
- Dimideer Apt gets used to living with each other. Three deer stuffed into a bathroom. Dimitri's terrible eating habits. u kno
- a young mercedes adjusting to that poly life, fusses over it a little before getting advice from Actual God, Maybe (probably not. maybe.)
pokemon au:
- give edelgard yveltal
- dimitri: luxray, nidoking, espeon, cubone, LAPRAS IS NECESSARY, cosmog is a blaiddyd thing that proves them worthy
- shuppets follow him around when he's feral
- greenhouse oddish just follow dedue around So Much
- dedue has matching sylveon, absol saved his life, shieldon from home
- ashe has a furret and a ralts
- mercedes with a blissey and then also every ghost type ever
- sylvain has a zoroark and an arcanine. what else does he have? WHO THE FUCK KNOWS, THE ZOROARK PRETENDS TO BE DIFFERENT POKEMON AND HE ROTATES HIS TEAM
- GOD FUCKING DAMMIT SYLVAIN GAUTIER
- felix has a bisharp, obviously, and a doublade (it evolves after character development) and a skarmory
- sylvain used to have a gautier rapidash. it's ingrid's now.
- hilda has clefairy and bewear. Surprise!
- byleth has zygarde and don't you question it
- all the cells are concentrated around the monastery for some reason???
Raile Collab
Questions from folks
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One thing i had to learn the hard way was that veryone experences their psychoses in dramatically different ways, and just hearing stuff from one person doesnt mean you know all there is to it. Having examples of different reactions or symptoms could be helpful (and creativly challenging).
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dragonsigma
luckless_salmon
bpforshort
thetomatowriter
hufflehobbit_writes
tearose_romantic
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I certainly found it refreshing to see the day-to-day aspect of schizophrenia. Most of my experience in school centers around crisis management in an inpatient setting. So, I'm usually exposed to patients when things go wrong and they are at their lowest point. I only got any outpatient experience by going off on my own time. Seeing your friend's insights on living with schizophrenia in the notes and the text of the fic have been very enlightening for me in that regard.
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If you wouldn't mind, I'd love to take a look at it. Most of my medical training focuses on the diagnosis, disease progression, and medications. Our training on preparing people for the day-to-day of the disease is, unfortunately, mostly reserved for residents only. So unfortunately, I'm not quite at that level yet. But the saying goes in medicine, "It's better to know the person with the disease than the disease the person has," so any personal life experiences your friend has would be a real treat to learn from.
Frankly, I find with life-long diagnoses, it's nice to have some grasp of what patients have to deal with (the day to day bs). I have some experience personally with the lovely chestnut of anxiety/depression, and it really has helped me with tempering expectations of both patients and their families. There's so many small mental habits that I still have from that (my first diagnosis instinct being something far deadlier than is usually the case. It was very helpful in the ER.) I can't imagine how isolating it could be to just not realize what day-to-day life looks like for its disease. Frankly, I'm glad mental health has become a more everyday topic compared to even five years ago. Hopefully, we can get there with other mental health disorders soon. I'd like patients to not feel like pariahs due to their diagnosis.
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It's nice to see things I've seen patients experiencing but they couldn't put into words well explained in the document. Thank you so so much!
(james note: gaps were mostly just me referencing things you'd told me, and then linking your gdoc)
Ellesra
•Does your sexual preferences change?
•What is your greatest frustration?
•How do the people around you respond to your condition?
•If there was a single cure-all, would you take it? Even if it would fundamentally change you as a person?
•Do you have a «main» personality, or do they all feel interchangeable?
•Whats your favorite color? Does the answer change?
adelmortescythe
Here's two for now, though, and sorry in advance if they feel offensive :BlobFearSweat:
1) does shifting between personalities ever change the way you view people? Family and friends?
2) when it comes to potential new romantic/sexual/qp relationships, how do you view the person that you're... Courting, for lack of a better word. Does schizophrenia make it harder to pursue new relationships? Even platonic ones?
And a third, bc this is imp.
3) How would a friend/family member being concerned about the individual with schizophrenia be viewed? What's a good way to show concern - without coming across as patronizing or offensive?
kichelmi
james questions